I’m single and the holidays always get to me.
Recently, around the world, it was the end of Ramadan, and the feast after the fasting is big, loud, and full of family. Muslim Malaysians go back to their kampungs (villages) to celebrate, just as we go “home” for Christmas—wherever home might be.
And that’s when I feel so very single and alone, without that one special person in my life who thinks I am the cat’s meow or the bee’s knees. Or family close by with whom to celebrate the holidays.
What brought this on? I had dinner at the magnificent Eastern and Oriental Hotel here in Penang, Malaysia. I watched folks come in, some with family in tow and some just as couples. It brought back memories of being a family, traveling together, and enjoying fancy hotels. I felt sad, alone, and unwanted.
So I returned to my apartment, opened the chocolate cake, put on a chick flick, and contemplated the meaning of life. And this is what I observed:
My newly-introduced spirit guides are readily available to me. Tonight they promptly dropped in to comfort me, watch the movie, and enjoy some popcorn. They made me laugh.
Facetime, Skype, and WhatsApp make it possible to talk to most anyone, anywhere, at any time. Just last night and early this morning I could Facetime with my sister-in-law and three long-time friends from the States, and WhatsApp with my son in Florida. There’s nothing like long-time friends and family who know you and still love you.
Then, I wrote my email gratitude journal and remembered to feel the feelings of what made me happy in the last couple of days. It included the new apartment I will move to in July, and the near completion of the final step of my MM2H visa to stay in Malaysia.
Yes, I might feel lonely at times but I don’t need to feel alone anymore. My daily gratitude and meditation practice has helped me rebalance my chakras and release the trapped emotions that tell me I’m worthless and unworthy.
I still have plenty of feelings but they don’t overwhelm me like they used to. Because of this energy clearing work, I feel much more calm, balanced, and grateful than I have ever felt in my life.
Life is good.
Certified Body Code Practitioner, life coach and energy healer, former non-profit executive with years of experience in caring for and about people and their place in this world. Friend of refugees and immigrants, ally to the addiction recovery community--all with respect, love, and compassion for mutual healing.